You know after reading this and really thinking about it, I'm still not sure how I feel about that day. I know it's going to be here and it's going to be very weird and scary and a shocking reality when it happens, but I also know I have three years of high school and then four years or more of college.

The other thing is that some of these are things that are much easier to handle than others. Like you know you're favorite musicians aren't always going to be making music, it's just a fact, so that's easier to accept than not seeing your friends everyday like you have been that past eighteen years plus of your life. I also feel like some of these are avoidable or preventable like forgetting all the amazing times with old friends, you don't have to forget old times to enjoy and make memories with new friends, and even not speaking to your best friend everyday is something you can prevent if you put in the effort to talk to one another.

There are some that I don't want to think about and sort of refuse to think about, like my parents not always being around, I refuse to accept that fact at the moment and will continue to disregard that until absolutely necessary. And the fact that life will change and that change is inevitable as a person grows and learns about themselves and others, it's a scary fact and something I don't like thinking about because it brings up other things I don't want to think about. Also, the fact one day I will no longer go to a school of any sort is kind of scary because all of my life has been about school and doing things for school and what do you do when you don't have school to occupy your time? Is it like summer all the time? I mean, I know you have to get a job at some point, but when does that time come? How long should you give yourself?

I don't know the answer to these questions, but hopefully someday I will and if I do and I'm still writing, I'll let you know what I've learned.

So, Good Luck to those whose life's are no longer the same. It seems kind of scary, yet exciting.

Love,
Natalie