Happiness was hard to come by at times, especially when she was away for so long. Sometimes it seemed like maybe the only way for her to feel was to drink. And she knew it was wrong, but it made her feel better and she didn't know how to stop. She was on a path of self-destruction and there was no way to stop her.
And people tried. Oh, they tried hard. But she didn't care. No one in her life was important enough to her to make her stop. As she continued to hurt herself she also destroyed her few friendships. People gave up, they had tried but realized that it was all for not. So they all slowly began to drop off.
As her friends disappeared her destruction go worse. She felt lonelier and therefore she wanted to escape more which led to more drinking. As she came to the lowest point someone new entered her life. Most people would say he would've been bad for her. He was someone probably worse off than her, but he cared. And that made her care.
So, she became a little better, not totally better and she still had so far to go, but he helped her feel less alone. What he didn't do though was help her stop medicating with alcohol. Because he did the same thing. They were a toxic pair at times. The two who needed to always feel something. The ones who needed unconditional love and affection.
Maybe they are the perfect pair, and maybe they have a lot more happiness than pain. But all I know is that she smiles now and he's the reason for that and I'll be forever grateful to him for that.
(This is all a fictional story. I hope you enjoyed it.)
Love,
Natalie
And people tried. Oh, they tried hard. But she didn't care. No one in her life was important enough to her to make her stop. As she continued to hurt herself she also destroyed her few friendships. People gave up, they had tried but realized that it was all for not. So they all slowly began to drop off.
As her friends disappeared her destruction go worse. She felt lonelier and therefore she wanted to escape more which led to more drinking. As she came to the lowest point someone new entered her life. Most people would say he would've been bad for her. He was someone probably worse off than her, but he cared. And that made her care.
So, she became a little better, not totally better and she still had so far to go, but he helped her feel less alone. What he didn't do though was help her stop medicating with alcohol. Because he did the same thing. They were a toxic pair at times. The two who needed to always feel something. The ones who needed unconditional love and affection.
Maybe they are the perfect pair, and maybe they have a lot more happiness than pain. But all I know is that she smiles now and he's the reason for that and I'll be forever grateful to him for that.
(This is all a fictional story. I hope you enjoyed it.)
Love,
Natalie
This is good, really good.
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