When I was little I always wanted to be a ballerina. If anybody ever asked me that was my answer, no hesitation. I only wish I could be that sure now.
I'm just not sure, about anything really, anymore. It's like when someone asks "Where do you want to go to college?" "What do you want to be?" "Have you thought about your future yet?" all of these questions terrify me. Because the answer to all of them is I don't know.And I really don't want to think about it right now.
The future scares me, but it also excites me. I've never felt so many conflicting emotions than when some of these questions are asked. It's excitement, fear, wonder, hope, stress, and so many others that I can't even put a name to they're so new to me. And I don't know what to do about them.
I'll be okay though. It's hard and it may take a while, but I'll figure something out. I don't have to decide for at least another year, but it's hard not to think about when everyone is constantly asking. So, maybe being a grown won't be my thing, but who says you have to be grown up when you get older. Maybe I'll just stay a lost boy in Neverland forever. That sounds pretty good to me.
Love,
Natalie
I'm just not sure, about anything really, anymore. It's like when someone asks "Where do you want to go to college?" "What do you want to be?" "Have you thought about your future yet?" all of these questions terrify me. Because the answer to all of them is I don't know.And I really don't want to think about it right now.
The future scares me, but it also excites me. I've never felt so many conflicting emotions than when some of these questions are asked. It's excitement, fear, wonder, hope, stress, and so many others that I can't even put a name to they're so new to me. And I don't know what to do about them.
I'll be okay though. It's hard and it may take a while, but I'll figure something out. I don't have to decide for at least another year, but it's hard not to think about when everyone is constantly asking. So, maybe being a grown won't be my thing, but who says you have to be grown up when you get older. Maybe I'll just stay a lost boy in Neverland forever. That sounds pretty good to me.
Love,
Natalie
Natalie, I love you.
ReplyDeleteDo not worry if you don't know what to do. Seriously. I don't either, and I'm doing it. Ha! You are beautiful and wonderful. Just enjoy, that's really all you have to do! Be happy and live life to the fullest every day. The rest will work itself out.
As far as college goes, visit visit visit. And then you pick. And you'll know when you see it that you're home. Trust me, I didn't think I would either and now I am in love with my school and it wasn't even originally in my top 3! So crazy.
God's got his hand on you, chick. And I love you and I am always here! Always. I pinky!
This means so much. It's so great to know that I'm not in it alone.
DeleteI can only hope that I turn out to be half as inspiring as you.
I love you too, and I'm here too. Always. <3