Memories are things we're supposed to look back on and see how we've changed. How we've grown, but I also think they're there to remind us of our past. So we never forget where we come from and how we've ended up at the place we're at. And sometimes those memories hurt, sometimes remembering will make us sad, but we need to do it anyway.
Because the bad things aren't going to just disappear and they're the things that have shaped us. They've made us strong. And with every bad memory we'll have ten good ones. So yes, we'll remember moments in our life that we hate, that we wish we could erase, but without them we would be entirely different.
But sometimes I'll think back on a moment and have this picture in my head on how things were and I'm wrong. I've come to realize that our memories do change and they are affected by the things we do. And that's kind of scary.
And I know I try and avoid the bad memories, the times that come to mind late at night when I should be asleep, but I don't think we should. I think that only hurts us more. Maybe one day I'll be able to look back on my life and say how great it was, how I was blessed with so many great days even when it seemed like my life had more bad than good.
Memories will hurt, good or bad. There will be days when the memory of a sleepover with your best friends hurt so much, because you don't talk anymore. Or that day when you had a complete breakdown and cried for hours is the worst thing ever. But it's not.
And life goes on, so you can create more memories more things to cherish and hide away from. And that's one of the most exciting things I can think of.
So, I guess all I can say to remind myself of this is, embrace the bad with the good and never be afraid to look back with fondness over your life. Just don't stay for too long, because life will move on without you. And you never know what might be waiting for you.
Love,
Natalie
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