I feel like I may be starting to feel like the place I'm at right now is where I want to get out of here for a while. Maybe not leave forever ad move away, but take a vacation from my life and start over again for a while.

But, what I've realized after having this little vacation is that when you come back, no matter how long your gone, there's going to be something you're going to have to face. You're always coming back to what you left.

The again, maybe that's what I need right now. To go and forget everything and then to come back and be throw into the world again and be needed. Maybe this is something everyone needs. I think taking time for ourselves isn't something to be ashamed for needing, but it is something that we need from time to time.

It's maybe something people begin to feel when they get older and realize how hard it is to get away from things when you don't leave. 'Cause I don't remember feeling like this when I was little.

It could also be that when I was gone these last few days, I didn't need to have the internet to be entertained because I had so much to do. Maybe it shows that people really ca go without technology and we should more often, because it forces us to be more social and really get to know people we would otherwise not even think about saying hello to.

Maybe vacations are meant to give you time to think about life and to realize that there are things in this world we care about that really aren't all that important.

So I still haven't figured out what I'm actually feeling here, but I think I'm getting a little better.

Love,
Natalie