Thankful

With Thanksgiving coming up in just a few days it has got me thinking. This one's going to be a hard one.

You never really think about how things will be without someone until you have to. And it's something that I would never want anyone to have to go through, but we do. Because loss is a part of life, and if we never experience it then that means we're doing something wrong.

Experiencing important things and feeling like there is someone missing who should be there is hard. And something that never goes away. Some days all you want is to talk to that person one more time, or just see them. But you can't.

There are a lot of things that I am thankful for. And I'm so lucky to have wonderful people in my life who love and care about me unconditionally. That's what I'm thankful for this year. And always.

Love,
Natalie

Dear God,

Sometimes I don't understand why You let somethings happen.
Okay I almost always don't understand why.
But I know there has to be a reason.

That one day things will be better.
That life will go on.
Because it has to.

And I may not know what Your plans for me are.
But I know there's a plan.
And that's almost all the reassurance I need.

Because this life will have bad times.
But I know it's only temporary.
And I know I'm here for a reason.

And if that's not one of the most wonderful things ever,
I don't know what is.

Love,
Natalie

Five Minute Friday

Today's Topic: Truth

Truth isn't always easy. It isn't always nice or pretty. It can hurt. And it usually does. But truth is special and rare. Life is full of truths. Things people know to be true. And the funny thing is no one has exactly the same truths. Everyone's truths are different because people are inherently different. And that's what makes life so amazing. Because for this brief span of time where we're all on this earth together, we get to learn other truths. We get to learn things that will change our life, that will make us think, that will make a profound change to our lives.

No, truth is not always pretty. And it's not always welcome. But it can change the world if we let it.

Love,
Natalie

Questions

1: What would you name your future daughter?
I really like the name Emma or Clara.

2: Do you miss anyone?
Yes, too many to count.

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
 I'd probably get all giggly and shy but say thank you.

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
 Yep

5: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
My birthday

6: Did you go out or stay in last night?
stay in

7: How late did you stay up last night?
probably about 11:30

8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
Probably

9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
School work

10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
Unfortunately

11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
Absolutely

12: Have you pretended to like someone?
Yeah

13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
Always and forever. They're disgusting.

14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
I'm pretty lucky and have a couple.

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Yeah. I have the problem of getting way too attached too quickly.

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
Yep

17: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yes, and it makes me even more upset when that happens.

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
No, not yet

19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
Nope

20: Who did you last see in person?
My brother

21: What is the last thing you said out lot?
I laughed. Does that count?

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
No

23: Have you ever been to Paris?
No, but I hope to one day.

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Probably too good.

25: Do you use chap stick?
Always

26: Who did you last share a bed with?
I don't remember.

27: Are you listening to music right now?
No, which is weird because I usually am

28: What is something you currently want right now?
I can't really thing of anything.

29: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
No kisses, so nope

30: How is your heart lately?
It's okay. Healing from a break.

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Sometimes, but not usually

32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Yesterday

33: What do people call you?
Usually Natalie, but I have a couple nicknames that are used at times.

34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
Yes, too many times. And I almost always regret it.

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Not right now, other than the normal things like school and work.

36: What are you listening to right now?
Youtube video

37: What is wrong with you right now?
Who knows!

38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
Yeah it is.

39: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
If I catch it.

40: What is on your wrists right now?
5 different bracelets, but it's usually more.

41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected?
Waiting for the unexpected

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
Work

43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
No, at least not yet.

44: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
Yes

45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
No

46: What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping

47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
Kind of, yeah

48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
With someone else. Waking up with someone there makes my day that much better.

49: Have you ever been to New York?
No, but one day I will.

50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Yes, and I meant it when I told them I loved them back.