So there have been some life changes recently. Not exactly the kind that one ever wants to talk about, but one that everyone wants to talk about with each other. Things with the person I've spent the last year loving ended. Not for any reason on my end or his really. It was all just bad timing. I'm in my first semester of college and he's halfway around the world (literally) in graduate school. Things just weren't working. We tried for a good three months, but by the end we weren't even in a real relationship. If there's one thing I learned it's that an occasional exchange of text messages and no guarantee of when someone is coming back to the same country as you does not make a relationship and it certainly doesn't keep one going, no matter how much you wish it would. The hardest part is that there's no one to blame. No one to hate or block out of my life. We're still friends. We still talk and care about each other. Life has different plans for us right now, and that's okay. If in the end we are meant to be together we'll find each other again. For now I'm thankful for my little piece of forever that I got to spend with him.
I guess that's the point I want to get across in this post. Even though we didn't work out the way we had planned the time we did get to spend together was special. It was our own little forever and I'm thankful that I got to share that feeling for the first time with you. Love has a weird way of making someone mean more to you than you ever thought possible and then suddenly they're gone and you don't really know what to do with yourself. I didn't know what to do with myself for a while. Eventually though I realized that everything he said was true. We weren't in a relationship anymore. Three texts a day with an "I love you" doesn't make a relationship. Waiting for two years or more for someone in this part of our lives doesn't make sense. As sucky as it is that this is the truth that doesn't change that it is the truth.
Neither of us deserved to have to put a hold on our lives for one another and we care too much about the other to let the each other give up their own dreams for the chance to be with the other person. That's how one person in the relationship begin resenting and hating the other and that's the last thing we wanted. I had hoped that we were the exception, but that's not usually the case. Everyone likes to think that if it had been them, they would've worked it out but until you're in the situation you never know what you'd actually choose.
We chose what was best for us. What was best for each other. Even though it was the hardest decision we've had to make, it was for the best. And in the end we still have a special friendship that we have saved by not letting our relationship go on to the point where one of us resented and hated the other and wanted to completely get them out of their life.
I'm thankful for the year I got to spend loving and being loved by him. It was one of the best and most special years of my life. I know at the end of my life I'll look back on this time and remember nothing but fond memories. Now I'm thankful for a friend who knows so much about me and who I know I can share anything with without being judged. What we had before was special, but what we have now is still special. It's just special in a different way.
Life has it's own plan that sadly we don't get any hints to. So if in the end we are meant to be, we'll come back to each other and if in the end we aren't meant to be and we both end up with other people then that's okay too. I got my time with him and it was amazing and if it's all the time I will ever get to call him mine, then that's okay. He's an amazing person and I hope that he accomplishes everything that he wants and more. He's gonna make the world a better place. I know this because in the short forever I got with him he made me a better person.
So there will be no more tears from me about this heart break. I'm okay now and everyday things begin to get even closer to "normal" again. I've never experienced this feeling before, but now I have and I've survived. Everything is survivable, you know. I'm not the first person to be broken up with and I'm definitely not the last. In the end the most important thing to remember is that there is a reason people come into your life when they do, but there is also a reason they leave. Be thankful for the time you got to share with them. Don't be afraid to be upset they're gone, but also don't let it ruin your life.
Heartbreak is a weird thing to thankful for, I know that. But in the end it changes you as a person, and that's what you should be thankful for. You let this person in to your life and the time you got to share with each other was precious and wonderful, but the time after them will be just as precious and wonderful if you will let it.
We might not have gotten the happily forever after I wanted, but we did get a happy ending. Honestly that's more than I could ever ask for in this situation. And if it's meant to be, several years down the road we'll meet again and pick up where we left off but we're not going to let that possibility stop us from living our lives right now. So I'm thankful for my time of being loved and my happy ending and I'll always be thankful for the time I got with him. We had our own little forever within the time we got to share and that is what's worth being thankful for.
I guess that's the point I want to get across in this post. Even though we didn't work out the way we had planned the time we did get to spend together was special. It was our own little forever and I'm thankful that I got to share that feeling for the first time with you. Love has a weird way of making someone mean more to you than you ever thought possible and then suddenly they're gone and you don't really know what to do with yourself. I didn't know what to do with myself for a while. Eventually though I realized that everything he said was true. We weren't in a relationship anymore. Three texts a day with an "I love you" doesn't make a relationship. Waiting for two years or more for someone in this part of our lives doesn't make sense. As sucky as it is that this is the truth that doesn't change that it is the truth.
Neither of us deserved to have to put a hold on our lives for one another and we care too much about the other to let the each other give up their own dreams for the chance to be with the other person. That's how one person in the relationship begin resenting and hating the other and that's the last thing we wanted. I had hoped that we were the exception, but that's not usually the case. Everyone likes to think that if it had been them, they would've worked it out but until you're in the situation you never know what you'd actually choose.
We chose what was best for us. What was best for each other. Even though it was the hardest decision we've had to make, it was for the best. And in the end we still have a special friendship that we have saved by not letting our relationship go on to the point where one of us resented and hated the other and wanted to completely get them out of their life.
I'm thankful for the year I got to spend loving and being loved by him. It was one of the best and most special years of my life. I know at the end of my life I'll look back on this time and remember nothing but fond memories. Now I'm thankful for a friend who knows so much about me and who I know I can share anything with without being judged. What we had before was special, but what we have now is still special. It's just special in a different way.
Life has it's own plan that sadly we don't get any hints to. So if in the end we are meant to be, we'll come back to each other and if in the end we aren't meant to be and we both end up with other people then that's okay too. I got my time with him and it was amazing and if it's all the time I will ever get to call him mine, then that's okay. He's an amazing person and I hope that he accomplishes everything that he wants and more. He's gonna make the world a better place. I know this because in the short forever I got with him he made me a better person.
So there will be no more tears from me about this heart break. I'm okay now and everyday things begin to get even closer to "normal" again. I've never experienced this feeling before, but now I have and I've survived. Everything is survivable, you know. I'm not the first person to be broken up with and I'm definitely not the last. In the end the most important thing to remember is that there is a reason people come into your life when they do, but there is also a reason they leave. Be thankful for the time you got to share with them. Don't be afraid to be upset they're gone, but also don't let it ruin your life.
Heartbreak is a weird thing to thankful for, I know that. But in the end it changes you as a person, and that's what you should be thankful for. You let this person in to your life and the time you got to share with each other was precious and wonderful, but the time after them will be just as precious and wonderful if you will let it.
We might not have gotten the happily forever after I wanted, but we did get a happy ending. Honestly that's more than I could ever ask for in this situation. And if it's meant to be, several years down the road we'll meet again and pick up where we left off but we're not going to let that possibility stop us from living our lives right now. So I'm thankful for my time of being loved and my happy ending and I'll always be thankful for the time I got with him. We had our own little forever within the time we got to share and that is what's worth being thankful for.
